August 2nd, 2013

I am honestly so proud if myself lately. I have been working a full time job and going to school online. I am doing what I need to do to get my life together. I have new friends to make memories with and I have a few old ones that I'm glad stuck around. With every passing day, though it can be a struggle I feel myself growing stronger and more confident. I know in my heart that I will be able to survive this life god has handed me. Though I face many struggles and some would say disadvantages I know that god hasn't given me anything I am not prepared for and I couldn't handle. The last few months have been really hard, and at times I saw ending my life to be the only answer but with recently situations I know that I am not meant to leave this world in such a gruesome way by my own hands. I know that family and god are watching out for me up there and they want me to succeed in life and I will not let them down. Through the struggles I am facing I know I will be strong enough to make it through each hurdle and bump or wall in the road. The doors that closed behind me have defiantly lead me to many open doors and even a few windows that I could crawl through. I'm not giving up on a life that I was blessed to have. Every thing happens for a reason and I can never doubt that because though things happened that I wasn't exactly proud of, I have been lead to some amazing people and some offers I can't resist. Life is looking up and even when it looks down a little I will continue to be strong and not give up. I can do this standing on my own two feet. I have the faith inside of me to pull this crazy life off.